Being Torn

I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching these days, trying to really listen to my inner self and focus on what my soul is trying to tell me. Lately I feel like the chains of life are pulling me in two different directions. I don’t know why but for some reason I feel like I should be doing only one thing and have an enormous amount of passion for this “one thing.” The problem is though that I’m constantly torn.

I know you’re probably thinking “why not both? Why just one?” Trust me, I’m thinking that too. I just can’t shake the feeling that something more is calling me. Don’t get me wrong, I love every aspect of my life. I’m a mom to a beautiful little girl, I have an amazing spouse, and I’m running my own business. I just have this deep sense of “passion” for writing. Not just making up stories, but actually transferring my thoughts, feelings, and soul imprints onto a piece of paper or whatever it is I find myself writing/typing on.

I’ve always needed a creative outlet in my life. I honestly don’t feel accomplished at all without one. But now this feeling is trying to tell me something more. I want to make a connection with others through writing, I want anyone and everyone to know there are people out there that care about them who are complete strangers. I want to inspire others, and brighten someone else’s day. The world needs so much more of that. The world needs more light.


2 thoughts on “Being Torn

  1. Melissa, you already do that! Follow your passion, keep it up. Just because you desire a passion other than being a great Mother and spouse, doesn’t mean that you are letting them down, or dimishing the quality you already give. You can do those important roles. However, choosing to do something for yourself will just enhance the other positive aspects of your life. I believe in you, and love the fact that you believe in yourself!


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