My Chaos

My Chaos

Oh my goodness! You guys this month has been crazy.  The last couple weeks have been busy, prom/grad season is pretty much over in the makeup world, and I’ve been able to meet some pretty awesome clients this month!  Brooke is feeling so much better now that her ear infection is gone, and she’s getting an adequate amount of sleep now!

I’m pretty much prepping my makeup kits to prepare for wedding season! It will be in full swing this week, going all the way into October!  I feel pretty blessed to be able to pursue my passions in this life, but I got to say I’m even more pumped to be home with my family more and have that flexibility to make my own schedule!  I’m thinking about offering makeup classes during those dreaded winter months, scheduled around my appointments.  So here’s to hoping!

On a completely different topic, can we all just take a moment to realize how damn hard it is to get a toddler to take her medicine.  While Brooke had her ear infection we were prescribed antibiotics, and even though she loved the taste afterwards it was hell trying to get her to actually take it!  If I attempted too late at night she’d puke, if she just finished eating she’d puke, if I waited just before her nap she’d puke! I think you get the point of what I’m trying to say.  Finally, I figured out that if I distracted her by putting any item in a container for her to figure out how to open she’d take her medicine no problem!  The things you think of when you’re a mom eh?  Anyways, to see her back to her old self is like a breath of fresh air.  No, it’s better than that! It makes you really appreciate how awesome she is.  Even when she wasn’t feeling the best she was still blowing kisses to everyone.  My little trooper. ❤

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I’m Back

I’m Back

I’ve started writing again! I need a creative outlet in my life 100% hands down! I’m feeling pretty pumped about my life with everything I’ve been blessed with lately.

I started my week off in a lull, feeling super bored, almost lost in my life. I was feeling like I was loosing focus of who I was personally and decided I needed a change. Hell, life gets a little dramatic when you’re keeping your mini me alive and thriving.

Brooke is 15 months old now and it feels like this week she never sleeps! Not because she’s crying or fussy, it’s just been like she just simply doesn’t want to close her eyes. I’m not even kidding you, she stayed awake for 4 hours last night from 8pm till 12 am just talking away to herself. On a few occasions she’d sit up and clap and laugh at the ceiling. I was texting her dad all night telling him I was convinced that we had a ghost. Who apparently has made friends with our little firecracker. She would even “shush” me if I tried talking to her. Who even taught her that?! Probably the ghost.

Take Time

Take Time

Today started off amazingly, it was one of those mornings where everything was perfect.  Or maybe my perception of everything was just super positive.  It was one of those mornings where I really realized how damn fortunate I am.  The blessings of my family and home life are what I am truly fortunate for.

Brooke and I started our day by going for our walk after breakfast.  We went down the side road where I use to spend a lot of my time as a child.  We walked along the ditch picking every fluffy dandelion that Brooke could find.  She’s obsessed with every plant she sees.  Once we got to the side road and started walking along the edge we came to a rather large section of grass filled with clovers!  These clovers were huge, not like last year.  I recall them always being there, just never that big.  I guess that’s what inspired this post for me.  Those clovers to me represent fortune.  Not as in money, but definitely a special type of wealth.

When I was young, and use to walk this same path with my grandpa I never knew how wealthy I actually was.  I never realized what I was growing up with in comparison to some other people.  I was always able to go exploring outdoors whenever I felt like it.  I always had my family close by to guide me in the right direction when I needed it the most.  The amount of unconditional love that surrounded me was far greater than anything else I could ever experience.  That type of wealth.

By now, after realizing all of this while walking along the road with Brooke we were at our next stopping point.  We found ourselves at the back perimeter of the hay field.  The sound was the definition of heaven on earth.  You could only hear the gently breeze of the wind, and the birds singing their songs.  I thought to myself, this is it.  It can’t get better than this.  Until I looked down, and saw Brooke.

Brooke has this type of keen curiosity.  It doesn’t take long to teach her something new.  I was watching her pick all the yellow dandelions that were left in the field, and put them in her stroller to take with us on the rest of our hike.  She started to explore a little more when she picked the clover.  Naturally, I thought she would just add them to her pile of dandelions but instead she wanted to pull out the flower petals from the clover and suck on the ends of them.  I instantly had tears in my eyes, I hadn’t seen anyone do that except my grandpa.  I still don’t know how she decided to do that, or why.  Maybe it was just a weird coincidence.  Or maybe it was just another life experience adding to our fortune.

The point of this post is to remind you to stop once in a while and truly feel your life.  It sounds a little corny, but truly sit back and let those experiences come to you.  Stop worrying about someone else’s time table for a day.  Embrace your own journey and live.  Truly live.  Feel every moment that you can; the good, the bad, the raw.

The Beauty In Chaos

The Beauty In Chaos

I’m at a point in my life where I’ve learned that there are many different ways to obtain your goals.  Before I was pregnant I was a very career driven woman.  I put a lot, if not all my effort into achieving that next big promotion.  I have always known I was going to eventually be doing my own thing and running my own business, but I was still working on what that business was going to be.  I had all these great ideas but never enough drive to get them started or I’d change my mind and focus on a different goal.  I know right? A little chaotic.

While driving home today from my sisters house I was thinking how crazy time changes things.  How amazing it is that I’m a mom now, but my goals are still the same.  When I found out that I was pregnant I’m not going to lie, I thought my career would be at a stand still and probably never be the same.  I was right about the never be the same part.  Now though, I’ve been forced to look head on at the crossroads in front of me and make a decision.  I’ve left a job that I thought would always be there and I’m actually starting to be my own boss.  I honestly cannot believe what I’ve already accomplished by myself and even though my successes may be considered small to some people, I’ve never been more fulfilled.

I know since becoming a mom I’ve learned a lot of valuable lessons.  What I didn’t know was that these lessons I’ve been learning about motherhood are actually helping me in almost every other aspect of my life.  Being a mom takes a lot of strength that you didn’t know you even had to begin with.  I mean sometimes at the end of the day you feel flat out defeated and ready to just be done and finally go to bed.  Being a mom has made me a stronger person and given me so much drive and courage to fulfill my goals that I honestly feel like nothing can stop me now.  I get to be home with my daughter, doing what I love and one day she will see that you can be happy and achieve anything she puts her mind and heart to.  My life has never been more chaotic, it has also never been this perfect.

You Can’t Pull Roots When They Run That Deep

You Can’t Pull Roots When They Run That Deep

I’ve heard it all my life; “she’s a May.”  You see my family has always joked with eachother that even though each of us are so different we all have one thing in common.  Our spirit, attitude, determination and a whole lot of stubbornness in between.  I’m sure every family has a story like this, so here is mine.

My grandfather was known for his “you see what you get” attitude.  Trust me, if something you did was stupid or wrong you’d know real fast.  My grandfather was my hero and I’ve learned so much from him that I didn’t even think about it at the time.  We use to spend every single day together.  He taught me so much about nature and personal values.  I like to think he really helped my own personality flourish.

My uncle was a spitting image of my grandfather.  I don’t think there’s another guy out there that had a laugh like his.  It was one of those laughs where you could hear from a mile away and you knew exactly where it was coming from.  We lost my uncle a couple years ago to a heroic fight with cancer.  I take that laugh with me wherever we go.  He taught me life is too short. Period.  Life is too short to worry and stress about a job when I could be home with my baby girl.  I have made a promise to myself to stop and take a minute everyday just to be thankful for what I’ve been blessed with.  That’s when I hear his laugh the most.

Those two men are on the “May” side of my family.  They helped shape me into the woman I am today.  They taught me how to stay true to myself and my own personal values.  They also taught me how to smell bullshit from a mile away.

I can’t forget about my father.  Even though he’s not a “May” he’s a softer version.  For lack of better words.  He is a man of faith and I cherish that.  You can see the passion in his eyes when he talks to you about absolutely anything, doesn’t matter what it is.  He’s a genuine soul.  So even though my grandfather and uncle had a lot of impact on who I am, my father led by example on how a princess should be treated.

All my life I’ve heard “she’s a May” and I’m so damn proud of that.  My mother and grandmother are even stronger than all of the men in our family.  They’ve gone through ridiculously hard times and came out swinging.  They’ve never stopped fighting.  I mean the women in the family had to be strong to put up with the men right?! Amen to that.  So when I say “she’s a May” I don’t mean it’s in her name.  I mean it in the way she carries herself.  A natural nurturer, but fierce as hell.

 

 

 

Family Day

Family Day

Family Day was yesterday and it was probably the perfect day here!  The weather was fantastic and Brooke was finally over a nasty bug!  I think we only spent a couple hours actually indoors.  Tyler, Brooke and I were outside back by the bush most of the day and going for nice country drives down the dirt road.

It’s funny how we change when we become parents.  I don’t think I’ve ever seen Tyler get so excited to be the one to push our new stroller or how Brooke’s fever was finally gone.  I also didn’t realize I could fall in love with him more and more each day because of that.  I love seeing him light up when she’s around him.

Brooke definitely loves being outside with nature!  I mean what kid doesn’t right?!  She loves the sounds of the chirping birds and all of the exciting things happening around her.  I don’t know how we got so lucky to be her parents.